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I have trust issues with men, and it can be very difficult to decipher when my concerns are legitimate or due to my own paranoia. I’m attractive enough to draw a considerable amount of male attention and have enough personality to keep them to develop what I believe to be serious relationships. But months later, I discover I’ve been wrong.
In my last relationship, I spent 3-4 nights a week at his house for months. I had a key to his apartment. I even met members of his family. And yet I STILL found out that he was engaged to another woman! And only because he’d forgotten to tuck away his anniversary card.
Being cheated on is bad enough but worse is consistently feeling you weren’t good enough to be the only girlfriend, nor good enough to be the #1 girlfriend. I tend to give the benefit of the doubt. I don’t spy on phone calls or snoop through drawers, but I’m starting to feel it’s necessary.
And before you say you’re not making yourself available to the right guys, I dated against type. I’ve been wined and dined by alpha jock types, I’ve done the light studio sessions will fellow artists. Hey, I’ve even done the really effeminate straight hair dresser (He had the nerve to ask me to reassure his lady that we had been using protection when we hadn’t.) And yet I am still the back up girlfriend. HELP! —Sharon
Oh, Sharon.
Your problem is the simplest one I’ve ever encountered in 4 years of writing this blog.
Of COURSE you have trust issues. You choose un-trustworthy men!
You have AWFUL taste in men.
You have seemingly NO sense of how a good man acts.
You probably wouldn’t recognize a man of character if he opened your car door.
Of COURSE you have trust issues. You choose un-trustworthy men!
So to properly address how to avoid this unseemly predicament in the future, it doesn’t start with spying on phone calls or snooping through drawers.
It comes with looking for patterns in your past, since you’re the only common denominator in your life and you’ve CHOSEN these men.
I’m no psychologist, but the obvious questions I have for you are these:
- Are your parents still together? Did your father leave you? Do you have any role models or paradigms of a committed relationship in your life?
- Have you always gone for emotionally unavailable men or did you start after a specific event in your life?
- How old are you and how long has this been going on? Everyone does stupid things in their 20’s. By your mid-30’s, your decision making should probably have improved.
- What is the common denominator between the “different” men you’ve chosen? Is it possible that you go for hot, charismatic, and unpredictable men in all forms? Because if you chase exciting, interesting men, it’s little surprise that those same men will a) have that same effect on other women and b) have the ego to keep pursuing all those other women because he values excitement more than stability.
Which, I’m guessing, is not all that different than you, Sharon.
If I had your life experience and sample size, I, too, would come to the conclusion that men are liars and players and not to be trusted.
Instead of thinking you’re breaking your patterns by choosing men with different careers, why don’t you actually start choosing men based on ONE quality alone: integrity.
But if I were me (which, for the sake of today’s post, I am), I’d point out to you that there are over 50 million married men in the United States, and, logically, most of them are not cheating on their wives.
So that just means that you need to work on your picker.
Instead of thinking you’re breaking your patterns by choosing men with different careers, why don’t you actually start choosing men based on ONE quality alone: integrity.
If you make integrity as important as you make attraction, you will quickly discover that you have no impulse whatsoever to break into your boyfriend’s email.
Good luck.
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